ACTIVE AGAIN

Today I was able to run the farther than any time since the Akron Marathon last September. Although it was 21.2 miles short of that achievement, it was a moral victory for me. Yesterday I got on the scale and got very real about the direction I was heading with my weight. I have gained 25 pounds since I was in peak running condition and that was very depressing when the scale said 170 lbs. That moment I decided I was not going to enter my birthday in 2 weeks continuing to nudge up the needle as I begin year 47.

So yesterday I ran two and today I ran five. Not very fast and did I feel it in my legs and knees! But I ran and started pushing through those barriers that I fought to knock down before. Here I am today facing walls that try to keep me from being who I need and want to be inside and out.

Since I got on the scale yesterday, I have lost my appetite and haven't eaten since yesterday morning. I know that I will break down and put something in my face but for now I am just going to knock down as much H2O as I can and hope to see and feel my way back to the wellness I enjoyed.

How I miss those days when I just ran and ran and ran for the sheer pleasure of being able to! Hopefully that's where I'll be again some day soon. The sooner it happens, the better!